Last Day

This would have been a better blog if blogger would have let me sign in earlier today when i tried...

i went to church, and one more time felt so loved by that body of believers. as i said goodbye to the ladies i was sad that it took until December for us to do a social gathering...i feel like i've just begun to really know them. i am so thankful for that group of believers, and how God has used them in my life.

i went to the bandstand and hung out with the kids one more time. had one more cup of coffee and journaled. i haven't made time to journal/process the past 2 weeks...its because i don't want to think about what's going on, or how i really feel.

i took one more train ride, and one more bus ride - i loved trains on Sunday mornings. they're not crowded, and you can stand in the doorway and feel the breeze and watch the city pass you by.

long story short, i bumped into some of my friends on the train platform - just as i was trying to give away some clothes and jewelry that i didn't want to take home with me...i didn't think i'd see them again...and i was thankful to give the "treasures" to friends.

my bags are packed. physically, i'm ready to go. i think tomorrow i will mostly just be numb. i kind of hope i am...i don't think i can handling feeling tomorrow tomorrow...i feel like i'm in this current - just dragging me along toward leaving...so many questions...so much unknown...what i do know is that tomorrow when i get on that plane i'll be leaving a piece of my heart here.