The past month has been really beautiful - and really emotionally draining for me...and it's with humility that i realize that this is actually exactly what i asked for.
for me, part of what drew me to WMF, and to Kolkata is knowing the value and priority that is placed on community and intimacy. i longed to submit myself to a community that shared my heart. I longed for the transformation and refinement that would come as i entered into a hard place, and into a journey with people who are committed to this place, and to journeying with me, as i chose to be woven into the tapestry here....
and that is exactly what has been happening. really, i can't describe the beauty of it...as truth is spoken into and over my life...but i'm not gonna lie...it also stings (more than a bit).
i'm thankful for how the Lord is refining my heart in new ways - and how i'm being drawn to Him in unique ways...in desperation that i haven't felt for years. resting in His love, crying out for mercy, crying out for peace - and for deliverance from the things that ensnare my heart (and have done so for years).
i've journaled more the past month than i have the past year and a half.
un-corking my heart.
feeling
questioning
praying
receiving
rediscovering how valuable this practice is to me and the health of my heart.
and i am so thankful.
and tired.
and i feel a bit fragile.
this is exactly what i asked for (and i'm thankful that i did) - but man does it sure is rough in the middle of it!
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pretty provocative title here, mel.
i so appreciate the honesty and positivity of this post. thank you for being open to changing and growing, for sharing it with us- your readers and fans- and for going on your faith journey. i am really inspired!
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