a new season

My time here has been filled with new seasons. its been broken up into "seasons" that last about 2 months. Tonight is the official start of a new season. I waved "goodbye" to a taxi...and Steph went back to the US again tonight. She'll be here for a month and 3 weeks (i think she told me that to make me feel like its less than 2 months!).

I'm not very excited about this new season.

Last time when steph went back to the US i'd only known her for 2 months, and while i missed her company and friendship - her leaving did not leave nearly the "hole" in my life that she is leaving this time. Stephanie has become a good friend. Someone i can be honest with, who understands me, and knows who i am here. She is someone i can "vent" with, and process with. Someone who asks me how my day was. a friend who i share my heart with...and who i laugh with and have fun with. It will be a huge adjustment living alone for the next 2 months.

Tonight after steph left I hung out with Katie, and tomorrow night i'm spending the night at Katie's. Ollie is out of town...so we're going to have a girls night/mid-week slumber party (my mom never let me have those!). i'm looking forward to hanging out with Katie - and i'm thankful for the change of scenery and the "distraction" it will be to not come home to a house alone tomorrow night. i'm also thankful for my friend Katie who knows me well enough - and cares about me enough to invite me over.

So, the new (and "last") season of my time with IJM has started. I know it will be good. I know i'll learn things. I know i'll grow and be transformed during this season....but for now, it's just sad.