i've been thinking about this blog for awhile. you see, on monday i turn 30. thats right...i'm crossing the line...bu-bye 20's bring on the 30s. I'm not worried, or stressed, or anxious about turning 30. and i'm certainly not going to tell people i'm 28 for the next 4 years, i'm not freaking out in anyway...i'm excited about my 30's.
maybe its cause i know lots of really incredible women in their 30's (like Sarah and Kristen in K-town) who are just living well - and fully - and authentically... maybe its cause i have so many friends who are going to be turning 30 soon (you know...there's strength in numbers). i'm excited about this year in my life...the year i live overseas...this year will be full of adventures, and joys and sadness and hardness and refining that i can't even begin to imagine.
i'm excited about 30 - but i have to admit that my life isn't at all what i expected it would at 30. i thought i'd be married by now. i thought i'd have a couple kids by now. and i really thought i'd know "what i wanted to be when i grew up" by now. (three strikes...but i'm not out!)
i always thought i'd go to my christian college and meet the man of my dreams...and we'd get married the summer after we graduated from college (isn't that just the way it goes at christian colleges?!?). that was my plan...and i was fully convinced that would be my life - right up until it didn't happen.
And while this life isn't the one i expected -i absolutely wouldn't trade it in...even if i could! i am so thankful for God's goodness, and His hand on me...and His plan for my life. I'm thankful for the 8 years since i graduated college...single - and for the doors that have been open to me...for the friendships God has given me - for the men and women who have shaped my heart. the communities i've been privileged to be a part of. I'm thankful for the gift of singleness that God has given me up until now. I'm thankful for the "unknown" aspects of my life - that i don't have any idea what i'll do with myself when i come home from south asia. I'm thankful for the freedom that i have - that comes first and foremost from the God who loves me...but also cause i'm single...i'm thankful for my family who loves me. i'm quite sure i have the best family in the world...and i'm thankful for my friends - who walk with me in this crazy journey. i have a lot to be thankful for, a lot to look forward to and a lot to celebrate. my heart is full!
As for 30 - bring it on.
I can't wait to live what's next!
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i'm proud of you for embracing what God is, and not getting caught up in what He is or isn't doing in your life. He is indeed good! hope your 30s see you move more deeply into all God is... love you. =)
Thanks for breaking the ice for some of the rest of us 29ers. I've been mulling over some of the same thoughts that you have been having. Thanks for verbalizing them.
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