one week

i leave dhaka in a week.

in some ways i feel like its the "low grade tension" constantly brewing just beneath the surface. i'm crankier. less patient. get frustrated much more quickly.

that makes it sound like i'm not excited about going to kolkata - which couldn't be further from the truth. i'm really ready to be done with this season of intense language study. i'm thrilled that i'll be in Kolkata in a few days.

what scares me is knowing that the "normal" that i've come to know (and like quite a bit) these past few months is about to evaporate into thin air. i have absolutely no idea what my life will be like after i get off that plane.

its all the little things that make up home. normal. patterns. rhythms. where to buy food. what food do i "normally" eat. how to get places. how much things cost. what is a "normal" day. people that are a regular part of my life. i don't know any of it.

its knowing that in a lot of ways what i'm looking at now is 3 months of transition.
6 weeks in Kolkata.
then 5 weeks in the US.
and then i'll be able to start really making a home in kolkata.

and there's also a very real sense of saying good-bye to a really beautiful home that i've been given here in Dhaka. beautiful friends. diverse. beautiful.

oh...i have a feeling this week is gonna be rough...