Word Made Flesh "betrothal"

obviously i've never been engaged - so i don't know what that season is all about, but i do have some ideas/guesses based on common sense, and the experiences of my friends.

i feel like i'm in this "engagement" or "betrothal" period with Word Made Flesh. The commitment has been made. the course has been set. There are parts of me that just want to fast-forward through the next months until i can been in Kolkata. Its where my heart is. its where i want to be. part of me is there no matter where the rest of me is. and at the same time, i know its just not time.

i know that i need this season where i am preparing to be there (where the Lord is preparing me). i am preparing to join that community fully. I am preparing to live geographically far away from my family and lots of friends. I am preparing for relationships and new family and new friendships. I am preparing for the ways my heart will break. I am preparing to celebrate, and hope, and fight for my friends.

while there are parts of me that would love to just be in kolkata now - there are other parts of me that acknowledge how important these next months are....how much i need them so that i can enter into all that WMF Kolkata is and will mean in a healthy/whole way (or as much as possible since this whole following Jesus thing is a never-ending journey). So as i settle into the unknown of looking for a job, and what the next months hold for me here, as i settle into the spreadsheets, books, letter writing that is to come - i am excited for this season. i am thankful for this season. i'm looking forward to the next 9 months...at least in theory anyway. my guess is there will be moments where i won't like this season so much...but i do see the value at goodness of it.